I sat in my car and just tried to survive.
My mind became blank as I fought hard to breathe.
I battled the urge to stop being alive.
I wanted to run but could not seem to leave.
I inwardly screamed as the silent tears came.
My head became heavy as static was felt.
The air was too thick and the noise was the same.
My strength for the fight slowly started to melt.
I gave up on breathing and just let it come.
I welcomed the panic much more that I'd thought.
And I didn't care that it finally won.
To meet an old friend was more comfort than not.
(2018)
